Experiencing the Resonance of ME
Sitting on the side of the mountain in my little trailer overlooking paradise I still wonder when things will shift; when I’ll get that phone call that says my life, as I’ve imagined it to be, is beginning NOW; that the moment has arrived – I’ve finally hit the Jackpot!
While sitting on the side of the mountain in my little trailer, overlooking paradise, I realize, to greater and greater degrees, that it doesn’t work that way – it being ME-ONENESS-UNIVERSAL SOURCE OF ALL THAT IS! My job is to learn about me in order to learn to be me. My way of learning about me is to sit on the side of the mountain in my little trailer overlooking paradise and notice when I’m anything but peace and in resonance with harmony. I notice when I’m in angst because the phone isn’t ringing, the emails aren’t coming and the bank account is thinning. I notice when I’m not living into my truth; when I’m pretending to live in my truth while I’m still practicing living in fear. Being me is the practice of experiencing the moment within which I exist. I experience the human me learning to release attachments to desired outcomes, learning to relinquish life as I imagined it – untethering myself from beliefs I made up when I was four years old – ones that said I needed someone in my life that would do the hard stuff for me – that I couldn’t do it on my own. It, in this case, is to live happily ever after, in the fullest expression of myself, with or without a partner, with serenity and joy.
Anyone who knows me and has worked with me as a coach knows that I’m all about empowering people to be it; be that individual who experiences the fullness of their being and is willing to live happily ever after in a reality perhaps totally different from the one so far imagined. So, if I don’t walk my talk; if I don’t experience the very essence of being that I want for others, well, I wouldn’t be able to go the full distance with you – I mean, those who are on the path – maybe that’s you, maybe it’s not you.
There’s very little time for navel-gazing going on here on the side of this mountain. Working with the books Oneness, and A Course in Miracles means studying me/Me. Rather than just reading the texts, I’m studying the phrases, absorbing the wisdom in the words; then looking within for resonance and dissonance, then choosing to practice living in resonance.
The other day, I read a passage about experiencing the resonance of harmony. I felt into it and asked myself “what is the experience of resonance of harmony?” All day I practiced living into that; that, being the vibrational resonance of harmony. I make that distinction because, through this practice of self-realization/self-actualization I know that what no longer resonates vibrationally will have to skedaddle, if it hasn’t skedaddled already, which translates as purging cellular memory, and other stuff too, out of my system, it will be coming through any moment. What doesn’t match the vibrational resonance of whatever you are being with – well, something has to give and you are the decider of what’s going to give – either the denser, fear-based vibrational stuff or the higher vibrational stuff. As I said, you get to decide.
This process can often be quite cathartic in nature – not always easy, comfortable and enjoyable, however every process like this has been excruciatingly rewarding, especially because it is the most elegant and raw way to experience me being ME.
A new client of mine, Nancy requested coaching from me because she’s been experiencing resistance in the area of building her business. Basically, she wanted a “How To” session so she won’t have to deal with the resistance. I wasn’t very helpful to Nancy, because I wasn’t willing to support her in avoiding resistance as if this was a part of life that we can easily skip over. Resistance is a giver of many gifts – my favorites are the gifts of self-exploration and self-awareness. Without resistance, few would stop to explore what it is that brings them to this moment in time; what beliefs, thoughts or judgments are in place that may be keeping them from taking that next step towards whatever it is they desire. The reason I bring Nancy into this picture is because, like Nancy, many of us experience a resonance with resistance more so than a resonance to prosperity or to other things we desire. We are held captive by the vibrational field of resistance until we figure out that it’s not the resistance but the vibrational field of self-awareness that we are in harmony with. It just feels like resistance. I know, it sounds confusing!
I’m as anxious to be successful in my business as anyone. And, I express my frustration everyday for things not being the way I expected them to be. It’s not suppose to be this hard, or take this long, or be so complex, or need so much self-discipline and vigilance. But, the truth is that sometimes it takes all of that and much, much more.
What I know – really KNOW to be true is that, it isn’t what I do that’s going to make the phone ring or the emails arrive. It’s that I be in the fullest vibrational resonance that I can be with ME. I don’t stop doing what I do, but I’m no longer attached to a desired outcome that I hope will come from the actions I take – the things that I do. I do them because I do them. They are in harmony with the ME that I am. I get to practice being my highest vibrational self within the doing and enjoying the moment of realizing that and nothing more. I know this sounds weird, yet I totally get the truth in the experience of being and in exploring this process with – with you as my witness. I’ll keep you posted!
S is for Sacrifice
I grew up in Michigan in a large Catholic Family in the 50’s and 60’s. I was taught that sacrifice was the price you paid to get into heaven. In service to this I let go of my wants, needs, thoughts and feelings. What I was left with when I hit my 30’s was pretty much an empty shell of a being and became, to some extent robotic – exclusively looking outside myself for commands for me to follow. I was terrified to think, feel or act on my own volition. Having never been given a copy of the blue prints or the How To Manual for being me, I had no idea what course to steer to get to my true north. Over decades I taught myself how to listen to my internal wisdom and practiced checking inside myself, retracing my steps (from before I could even walk) to rediscover my fullest expression of myself.
In the name of Heaven we make incredible sacrifices. The question is – what is Heaven? More importantly in the context of this series, what is Heaven to you? How will you know when you’ve arrived?
Given that we are talking most specifically about spirituality in the business, I suspect that each one of us has maneuvered into our current roles and positions because to some degree we are wanting to create heaven on Earth, especially when it involves the fact that we spend at least one third of our lives in this environment. What have you sacrificed in order to be where you are right now, in this moment? What I’m really wanting to know is – have you sacrificed the right things in order to have what you currently have? Rarely do I use the word right, so I’m obviously on the way to making a point!
On Tuesday, I spoke to the San Francisco Professional Career Network. These individuals are in the process of once again becoming gainfully employed, however many of them are up against some very stiff resistance (the R word, remember?). Not much different than many of us, they experienced rejection, trauma, abuse, neglect and humiliation in their previous work environment, and as they move in the direction of employment, something stops them. What stops them, and appropriately so, is the memory of what they’ve previously sacrificed for what they thought would provide stability, a role that contributed to the growth and development of their company, as well as a sense of personal and professional fulfillment. They are now having to choose to choose what to choose in service to what it is they want. This time they have the opportunity to choose what to sacrifice from a more conscious perspective.
Everyone has to make the choice to sacrifice that which they are willing to sacrifice: Health, family, personal fulfillment, creativity, integrity, financial stability, trauma, stress, abuse – each of us has our price.
I’m suggesting that maybe what we’ve sacrificed isn’t worth the price. This is a huge spiritual issue for those who have come to believe that financial stability will create happiness. The current global economic circumstances are indicating that, that may be an inaccurate assumption. The wounding that has occurred – that we’ve allowed to occur for the sake of financial viability for many has cost them their lives, their families and their dignity. I don’t think this is working very well – do you?
I’m guessing that when searching your internal database you’ll un-conceal regrets and lost dreams that were sacrificed for what at that time seemed like the appropriate or only choice to be made. All of us have these regrets and losses, yet until we come face to face with them and the emotional well of powerless and hopeless that has never been mined we will continually repeat the circumstance – just different environments and we’ll never allow our essential self to guide us to our fullest expression.
It makes sense to me that many of those individuals in the San Francisco Professional Career Network are balking at returning to the corporate environment. It makes sense to me that they are no longer willing to sacrifice their souls for the almighty paycheck.
Not all work environments are dysfunctional but the fact of the matter is that too many are dysfunctional. My belief is that because most of us were raised in families where dysfunction played a huge role in how we come to see ourselves, how we value and treat our selves and how we choose to choose what we choose, we can’t help but create environments that reflect the same.
I believe that each of us has come to this planet to fulfill a very specific life purpose. My job is to support people in choosing to choose to live into that purpose – fearlessly. This conversation definitely includes the question “What get’s sacrificed?” It also allows evidence to speak for itself; “Has it worked so far to give up what is most essential to your BEING and to you living your LIFE PURPOSE?”
This line of questions emphatically points to the dilemma and what we do in this dilemma. The dilemma is a choice-point where most of us choose to choose NOT to choose, thus experiencing a quality of life that feels stuck, lost, paralyzed, trapped, confused, depressed. SIGH! I know of no one who is allowed the “get out of jail free card” and doesn’t have to actually choose when facing the inevitable choice-point: Now or later – it’s up to you!
I don’t wish this moment on anyone, however, the inevitability of it is what it is. I can’t convince or cajole you to take me seriously. I only encourage you to feel into your heart and soul and reveal, discover and acknowledge your own evidence, your own truth and your own wisdom to know what is yours to do.
Enjoy the exploration!